Spoken Word Poetry: Facing The Unknown/Back to Square One

Hi everyone! I haven’t written in a while because I have been very busy with work, ironing out the beginnings of writing a book (see more here), and such as that, I’m back and have another poem I plan to add. This one’s mostly about going through some personal struggles and questioning what God has for me, but knowing I can trust Him, even though doing so can be- and often is- difficult to the human mind. At least, I know that has been my experience and it is easy to give into the temptation to think God doesn’t know what He is doing when our lives aren’t working out as we hope. That, for some reason, got me thinking this evening as I was considering my life as it has passed so far. After all, though I love God, love my family,  love my friends, love my church community, find my job rewarding and am glad for my career path, have hobbies I enjoy, etc., I still have my questions about what the future holds for me.

As such, I’ve had a lot of questions about myself as a person and what my future will hold. Thus, I was inspired to write again, especially as today is World Poetry Day! Thanks to Nicole Czarnecki at The Nicole Factor .  I appreciate the notice!

Without further ado, then, here is the poem I mentioned and I will also have more details on the manuscript for the book I am authoring if anyone is interested!

(P.S. Please pardon the formatting. Everything I have tried to fix it has failed for some reason! I will do my best to fix it and ask pardon!)

Facing the Unknown/Back to Square One

I have days I admit I can mundane and all the same like when

It’s six or seven o’ clock in the morning again

And I wake up wondering why I am here and what is my purpose?

I love what I do, which makes my work worth the doing, I say!

But, like anyone else, I wonder if where I am now is where I am called to stay

Or worse, was I meant to be somewhere else to start and I went my own way

Instead of seeking the God Who made me with all my heart and ordained all my days?

What if, instead, I am where I am meant to be and missing the bigger picture,

But get bogged down in the details of the everyday until that hurts?

Maybe there’s something in what I am doing that I am simply missing

And I just have to keep working, waiting, and praying concerning what I’ve been given.

I know all things will work for my good in the end, but I still have my questions!

For example, I believe my work is significant, but  wonder, “Is all this worth it?

Am I living my everyday as I am meant to live, giving my everything I have

Working for my bosses as for the Lord, the Great I Am, that is?”

I confess I am as human as anyone else and sometimes feel like mundanity

Has been the result of my existence, awaiting the fulfillment of dreams of majesty.

Then I reflect on my God, my family, my friends, and the freedom of my country

And remember I am blessed, no matter what this life holds for me.

Of course, the cycle continues on to some weekends, however I find myself awakened,

Whether by sunlight on my face, alarm clocks, or puppy kisses.

Usually, I find myself waking early almost every morning then

And start the day praying, though battling life’s uncertainties again.

Then comes the inevitable: will I accomplish everything I had planned?

Will I find time out from housecleaning, bills to pay, and such as that?

Hopefully, I find myself thinking, I’ll spend quiet, focused time with God,

Take some time to share with my loved ones and snuggle up often with my pups.

That is, I find myself asking “Will life ever be less mundane than it seems at present

Even though I know my days are filled with good things and I have been blessed?”

After all, I doubt I’m alone in feeling that my everyday has moments of stagnancy

And wondering whether I am living my life well for the One greater than me.

I have my doubts sometimes about where I have been led and

Whether the life I have lived is making an impact, to be honest.

Right now, I admit, I am perplexed at best about how to manage.

At worst, I’m sometimes surprised I haven’t said, “All right, then,”

And found myself questioning all that I’ve come to believe in!

Very well, I know that the Gospel truth of my God is what it is

And the One Who is Faithful will never break His promises.

Even when I face the unknown, then, and find that my progress

Has put me back on square one again, still He is with me, no matter what’s next.

Whatever this life holds, in conclusion, however it changes

Be it life holds new relationships, income, travel destinations,

Career changes, new studies, greater wisdom and revelations,

Whether the mundane stays the same or becomes majestic,

Perhaps I am the problem in my life and need a change in perspective.

Something about realizing that the unknown is not mine to know, though,

Is, I confess, refreshing, although I admit often to a fear of the unknown.

Perhaps I am stuck in this cycle because I need to know more how to listen

To the voice of my God and to keep believing that all He says, He will do yet!

I know that facing the unknown and being on square one sometimes is not the end;

Rather, every time I find myself here is an endless second chance to start afresh

And live better for the rest of my life, for eternal impact and significance.

To God be the glory in all things, to Him forever and ever, then!

In the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, Amen!

 

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A Bit of Writing: Part 11: Trusting You (Part 1)

Hi everyone,

As promised, here’s the writing I managed to come up with presently. Sorry if it’s a bit disorganized, as I ocassionally write here when the thought of what to write about just….comes to me. Here it is so far and I hope you like it! Thanks!

God Bless, as always,

Michelle

Bonjour tout le monde,

J’écrirai un nouveau poème maintenant, comme je promis. Je suis désolée si le poème est un peu désorganisé, ‘a cause de l’inspiration soudaine.    C;est en bas et j’espere que vous l’aimez. Merci!

Dieu vous bénisse, comme toujours,

Michelle

Trusting You

God, I’m afraid for the next phase of my life

I find my heart divided and it’s causing me strife/

So I can’t be decided without second guesses

Rather than letting go and surrending to You instead/

So I don’t worry for myself about what comes for me next.

After all, You say “seek first the Kingdom and its righteousness”/

But so often I get caught up in distraction and deception

That I find my attempts to resolve my tensions become ineffective…..

To be continued/Plus bientôt.

Upcoming Posts/Des Articles du Futur

Hi everyone,

After a busy week, since my university is on our spring break (or spring recess), I will be posting some writing and possibly a video this week.

Speaking of videos, if you hadn’t seen my YouTube channel within the last couple weeks, I mentioned taking a hiatus from musical pursuits- namely, that of making song covers- to focus on my own writing and related endeavors. In the meantime, I am showcasing my work pertaining to one of those related endeavors: photography. Here are two of my latest videos for examples of what I’m doing:

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2)

That said, I should be publishing more writing, photography, and video blogs in the next few weeks! Thanks!

God Bless, as always.

Michelle

Bonjour tout le monde,

Après une semaine occupée, mon université prend nos vacances du printemps. Alors, je créerai des articles de blog desquels concernent ma photographie et des écritures musicales et poétiques.

Alors, comme je prends une pause musicale sur YouTube, des exemples de mon travail sont sur YouTube (voyez les liens en haut). Cela dit, je publierai plus de mes écritures, vidéos, etc., cette semaine! Merci!

Dieu vous bénisse, comme toujours,

Michelle

Spoken Word Poetry: Anomaly: Part 4: Conclusion/ Un Poème Parlé: Anomalie: La Quatrième Partie: Conclusion

Hi everyone,

As promised I would try to do, I am posting the conclusion of Anomaly  (the English version; the French version will be up in a week or so and I will keep you posted.). Additionally, I am writing something new, the first part of which will be included in a second post. The latter work is, as of yet, untitled, but I will decide on a title when I’ve thought the writing through more.

That said, here is Anomaly in full. I hope you enjoy it, but I welcome feedback either way as long as your comments are clean and civil. God Bless!

As always.

Michelle

Bonsoir tout le monde,

Comme j’avais promis que j’essaie, je créerai un article de blog avec la conclusion du poème Anomalie (la version anglaise; la version française sera finie après une semaine.). Je créerai un article de blog pour un nouvelle poème pendant le weekend prochain aussi, mais la première partie sera sera dans un deuxième article de blog. J’espère que vous aimerez mon poème, mais, si ce n’est pas le cas, je comprends. Je demande seulement que vos commentaires sont civiles et constructives. Merci! Dieu vous bénisse!

Comme toujours,

Michelle

Anomaly

They confirmed that I was the anomaly of our diverse group

When we discussed social constructs and I told the truth./

“I’m the white, Christian, female, heterosexual, cisgender one,

So I’m probably the anomaly here”- sure enough, I was./

Then we went right back to our friendly discussion and banter

Though I found myself disengaged as I pondered the matter/
Indeed, I stood out from the rest, for I live quite a bit differently,

But at least I’m glad we get along, and more so to be the anomaly./

So it’s no wonder sometimes I feel lost in this broken, selfish world,

Living in a fallen world is difficult for this serious, old soul of a Christian girl/

Whose entire existence hinges on day-by-day living

Serving her God and King while awaiting His second coming./

I also admit I get lost sometimes

Chasing things of the world that aren’t meant to be mine/

Like the rest of us, as I am human, prone to self-preservation:

Sinful and looking for something, some peace or happiness./

Thankfully, I’ve found both in Jesus, though He never had to give them;/

What a wonderful God He is, Who loves me knowing I am imperfect!

Thus, I want to make my life a life lived in His service/

So that the world would see in me and my life the King who made them!

Thus, I acknowledge I am an alien and a stranger in this world,

Recalling I was set apart for God when I was just a little girl/

And though it isn’t easy, I’m proud to be an anomaly

Since my King, praise Him, died and rose again to give life to me!/

Indeed, I am blessed to know my God and love Him eternally

As He first loved me, even before the universe came to be./

Thus I want to live my life praising Him with all He gave me

And I’ll do that by living as a proud Anomaly. (Glory to God, that it would be!)

Spoken Word Poetry: Anomaly: Part 3/ Un Poème Parlé: Anomalie: La Troisième Partie

Hi everyone,

Having been busy for a bit and reviewing the poem while debating whether to post it to Facebook- or, rather, the poem as it is so far, I found myself writing a bit more, so here’s the continuation of said poem. Thanks and God Bless!

As always,

Michelle

Bonjour, tout le monde,

Comme j’étais occupée pour cette semaine et j’avais lu le poème pendant j’avais décidé si je le distribuerai au Facebook- ou, au présent, le poème comme il existe au moment- j’ai écrit plus du poème. Alors, la continuation du poème est en bas.  Merci et Dieu vous bénisse!

Comme toujours,

Michelle

Anomaly

They confirmed that I was the anomaly of our diverse group

When we discussed social constructs and I told the truth./

“I’m the white, Christian, female, heterosexual, cisgender one,

So I’m probably the anomaly here”- sure enough, I was./

Then we went right back to our friendly discussion and banter

Though I found myself disengaged as I pondered the matter/

Indeed, I stood out from the rest, for I live quite a bit differently,

But at least I’m glad we get along, and more so to be the anomaly.

So it’s no wonder sometimes I feel lost in this broken, selfish world,

Living in a fallen world is difficult for this serious, old soul of a Christian girl

Whose entire existence hinges on day-by-day living

Serving her God and King while awaiting His second coming.

I also admit I get lost sometimes

Chasing things of the world that aren’t meant to be mine/

Like the rest of us, as I am just like all humans:

Sinful and looking for something, some peace or happiness./

Thankfully, I’ve found both in Jesus, though He never had to give them;/

What a wonderful God He is, Who loves me knowing I am imperfect!

Thus, I want to make my life a life lived in His service/

So that the world would see in me and my life the King who made them!

(To Be Continued/ ‘A suivre)

Spoken Word Poetry: Anomaly: Part 2/ Un Pème Parlé: La Deuxième Partie

Note: The poem is only in English at present. I will publish an English and a French version upon completing the poem in its final form.

Note: Ce poeme est en anglais seulement au présent. Je publierai deux versions quand j’aurai complété le poème entièrement.
Hi everyone,

After mulling over the poem a bit, I am publishing what I’ve toyed with so far. Let me know what you think. Thanks!

As always,

Michelle

Bonjour, tout le monde,

Apres j’avais pense du poème aujourd’hui, je publie mes écritures du moment. Soumettez vos commentaires. Merci!

Comme toujours,

Michelle

Anomaly

They confirmed that I was the anomaly of our diverse group

When we discussed social constructs and I told the truth./

“I’m the white, Christian, female, heterosexual, cisgender one,

So I’m probably the anomaly here”- sure enough, I was./

Then we went right back to our friendly discussion and banter

Though I found myself disengaged as I pondered the matter/

Indeed, I stood out from the rest, for I live quite a bit differently,

But at least I’m glad we get along, and more so to be the anomaly.

So it’s no wonder sometimes I feel lost in this broken, selfish world,

Living in a fallen world is difficult for this serious, old soul of a Christian girl

Whose entire existence hinges on day-by-day living

Serving her God and King while awaiting His second coming . . ..

Spoken Word Poetry: Anomaly: Part 1/ Un Poème Parlé: La Première Partie

Note: The entry is also in French, after a brief hiatus from writing in French!

Note: L’article de blog est en français aussi, après une pause des écritures en français!
Hi everyone,

As I promised, I am going to be writing more in the coming days and should have a poem complete- or rather, the draft, as I am almost always editing my writing- by this evening! It’s entitled “Anomaly” and came from a rather amusing conversation twith a group of acquaintances and friends with whom I frequently have lunch at one of the popular hangout spots at my university. The point of the poem is a mix of self-expression, social commentary, and encouragement for those who question and reflect on themselves and their roles in the world every day- especially conservative/traditional, born-again, Christians like me. I’ll explain more later, but expect to see a posting soon! God Bless.

As always,

Michelle

Bonjour tout le monde,

Comme j’avais promis, j’écrirai plus des poèmes, des paroles pour les chansons, et cetera, more dans le futur et j’anticipe la complétion d’un poème- ou, plutôt, le brouillon, comme je révise souvent mes écritures- ce soir! C’est intitulée “Anomalie” de l’inspiration d’une conversation parmi des amis et moi pendant nous mangeons nos déjeuners ‘a une place très populaire pour les rendez-vous parmi les étudiants de mon université . Le poème est un mélange de l’expression individuelle, de la critique sociale, et de l’encouragement pour ceux qui questionnent et réfléchissent sur eux-mêmes et leurs rôles dans la vie quotidienne du monde chaque jour- spécialement les chrétiennes qui sont régénérés  et traditionalistes comme moi. J’expliquerai plus en détail plus tard, mais vous pouvez anticiper ‘a voir un article de blog dans un avenir très proche! Dieu vous bénisse!

Comme toujours,

Michelle