Spoken Word Poetry: Facing The Unknown/Back to Square One

Hi everyone! I haven’t written in a while because I have been very busy with work, ironing out the beginnings of writing a book (see more here), and such as that, I’m back and have another poem I plan to add. This one’s mostly about going through some personal struggles and questioning what God has for me, but knowing I can trust Him, even though doing so can be- and often is- difficult to the human mind. At least, I know that has been my experience and it is easy to give into the temptation to think God doesn’t know what He is doing when our lives aren’t working out as we hope. That, for some reason, got me thinking this evening as I was considering my life as it has passed so far. After all, though I love God, love my family,  love my friends, love my church community, find my job rewarding and am glad for my career path, have hobbies I enjoy, etc., I still have my questions about what the future holds for me.

As such, I’ve had a lot of questions about myself as a person and what my future will hold. Thus, I was inspired to write again, especially as today is World Poetry Day! Thanks to Nicole Czarnecki at The Nicole Factor .  I appreciate the notice!

Without further ado, then, here is the poem I mentioned and I will also have more details on the manuscript for the book I am authoring if anyone is interested!

(P.S. Please pardon the formatting. Everything I have tried to fix it has failed for some reason! I will do my best to fix it and ask pardon!)

Facing the Unknown/Back to Square One

I have days I admit I can mundane and all the same like when

It’s six or seven o’ clock in the morning again

And I wake up wondering why I am here and what is my purpose?

I love what I do, which makes my work worth the doing, I say!

But, like anyone else, I wonder if where I am now is where I am called to stay

Or worse, was I meant to be somewhere else to start and I went my own way

Instead of seeking the God Who made me with all my heart and ordained all my days?

What if, instead, I am where I am meant to be and missing the bigger picture,

But get bogged down in the details of the everyday until that hurts?

Maybe there’s something in what I am doing that I am simply missing

And I just have to keep working, waiting, and praying concerning what I’ve been given.

I know all things will work for my good in the end, but I still have my questions!

For example, I believe my work is significant, but  wonder, “Is all this worth it?

Am I living my everyday as I am meant to live, giving my everything I have

Working for my bosses as for the Lord, the Great I Am, that is?”

I confess I am as human as anyone else and sometimes feel like mundanity

Has been the result of my existence, awaiting the fulfillment of dreams of majesty.

Then I reflect on my God, my family, my friends, and the freedom of my country

And remember I am blessed, no matter what this life holds for me.

Of course, the cycle continues on to some weekends, however I find myself awakened,

Whether by sunlight on my face, alarm clocks, or puppy kisses.

Usually, I find myself waking early almost every morning then

And start the day praying, though battling life’s uncertainties again.

Then comes the inevitable: will I accomplish everything I had planned?

Will I find time out from housecleaning, bills to pay, and such as that?

Hopefully, I find myself thinking, I’ll spend quiet, focused time with God,

Take some time to share with my loved ones and snuggle up often with my pups.

That is, I find myself asking “Will life ever be less mundane than it seems at present

Even though I know my days are filled with good things and I have been blessed?”

After all, I doubt I’m alone in feeling that my everyday has moments of stagnancy

And wondering whether I am living my life well for the One greater than me.

I have my doubts sometimes about where I have been led and

Whether the life I have lived is making an impact, to be honest.

Right now, I admit, I am perplexed at best about how to manage.

At worst, I’m sometimes surprised I haven’t said, “All right, then,”

And found myself questioning all that I’ve come to believe in!

Very well, I know that the Gospel truth of my God is what it is

And the One Who is Faithful will never break His promises.

Even when I face the unknown, then, and find that my progress

Has put me back on square one again, still He is with me, no matter what’s next.

Whatever this life holds, in conclusion, however it changes

Be it life holds new relationships, income, travel destinations,

Career changes, new studies, greater wisdom and revelations,

Whether the mundane stays the same or becomes majestic,

Perhaps I am the problem in my life and need a change in perspective.

Something about realizing that the unknown is not mine to know, though,

Is, I confess, refreshing, although I admit often to a fear of the unknown.

Perhaps I am stuck in this cycle because I need to know more how to listen

To the voice of my God and to keep believing that all He says, He will do yet!

I know that facing the unknown and being on square one sometimes is not the end;

Rather, every time I find myself here is an endless second chance to start afresh

And live better for the rest of my life, for eternal impact and significance.

To God be the glory in all things, to Him forever and ever, then!

In the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, Amen!

 

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Spoken Word Poetry: Part 7 (?): You Matter To Me

Hi everyone!

Once again, I find my writing comes back in the strangest of places….well, okay, church isn’t that strange, but my email inbox is! Oddly, courtesy of Peter Hollens, I found writing flowing like a river, again. I have yet to finish my previous work, which you saw if you read my previous post. If not, the link is below and I think you’ll see why I believe it is unfinished. (Then again, a true artist’s work is never really done, is it?)

https://mademoisellemichelle1990.wordpress.com/2017/04/30/when-inspiration-calls/

That said, finding inspiration in an email  and on Facebook (thanks to Peter and Evynne Hollens and Gary Turk, in fact) were odd occurrences at first, but not so now. Therefore, I’m just going to write and put it out there. All comments are welcome provided they are spam-free and appropriate for all eyes to read. Thanks and God Bless!

You Matter To Me

You matter to me, they tell me, and I tell them the same,

But what happens when I say it and my actions don’t change?/

What happens when someone asks for much-needed space

Or reaches out for connection and I regard each wish with a “nay?”/

What happens when I’ve isolated myself, caring for myself alone

And someday, I find that I truly end up on my own?/

When “You matter to me” becomes “You’re important only as I propose”

Is it any wonder that we soon think ourselves sinless and throw the first stone?

 

Let me, then, be the first to say I am sorry for the ways I’ve been

Thinking myself the victim of most predicaments I’m in./

No one deserves much of what I’ve done and I ask your forgiveness, please;

Yes, though I am human and need grace, I admit irresponsibility./

 

Friend, family member, past partner, coworker, or whomever you may be;

Please know that I mean what I say and I hope you accept my apology.

All I ask is one chance to show that I have changed my ways by God’s saving grace,

And I cannot guarantee that I’ll be perfect, but will do, by His grace, the best I can./

After all, He provided me love and salvation, so who am I to exclude any person?

And now, as I conclude, I feel a change taking place; yes, I’m finally set free!

I understand if you are skeptical, but I ask for you to take a chance on me/

And believe me when I say I will take a chance on you, too.

For I believe God meant it when He said, “Come to Me, all of you

Who are weary, tired, anxious, hopeless, and seeking life anew.”

Friends, perhaps I am alone, but I date to ask: why not start anew?

What would happen if we were honest and lived out the Golden Rule?/

To do so won’t be easy, this I grant for sure,

But to do so is worth more than anything we all dare to hope could provide more./

I say this because God has once again made clear that I matter to Him,

So, reminded of this, I feel there is something to be said of it.

 

Finally, just so you know, before you go, you matter to me

And I pray you found yourself encouraged whether you believe./

Thank you, dear readers, for taking the time to read the words I typed,

And I pray you know you matter as you slumber, or perhaps arise./

May God give you strength and courage to conquer the days to which you wake

And know that you are loved, no matter what happens each day you will face./

I pray that as I conclude this poem tonight that God gives you strength

To live out each day aware that you are worth it all, no matter what living this life takes.
Thanks again and God Bless,

Michelle

 

 

A Bit of Writing: Part 11: Trusting You (Part 1)

Hi everyone,

As promised, here’s the writing I managed to come up with presently. Sorry if it’s a bit disorganized, as I ocassionally write here when the thought of what to write about just….comes to me. Here it is so far and I hope you like it! Thanks!

God Bless, as always,

Michelle

Bonjour tout le monde,

J’écrirai un nouveau poème maintenant, comme je promis. Je suis désolée si le poème est un peu désorganisé, ‘a cause de l’inspiration soudaine.    C;est en bas et j’espere que vous l’aimez. Merci!

Dieu vous bénisse, comme toujours,

Michelle

Trusting You

God, I’m afraid for the next phase of my life

I find my heart divided and it’s causing me strife/

So I can’t be decided without second guesses

Rather than letting go and surrending to You instead/

So I don’t worry for myself about what comes for me next.

After all, You say “seek first the Kingdom and its righteousness”/

But so often I get caught up in distraction and deception

That I find my attempts to resolve my tensions become ineffective…..

To be continued/Plus bientôt.

Spoken Word Poetry: Anomaly: Part 4: Conclusion/ Un Poème Parlé: Anomalie: La Quatrième Partie: Conclusion

Hi everyone,

As promised I would try to do, I am posting the conclusion of Anomaly  (the English version; the French version will be up in a week or so and I will keep you posted.). Additionally, I am writing something new, the first part of which will be included in a second post. The latter work is, as of yet, untitled, but I will decide on a title when I’ve thought the writing through more.

That said, here is Anomaly in full. I hope you enjoy it, but I welcome feedback either way as long as your comments are clean and civil. God Bless!

As always.

Michelle

Bonsoir tout le monde,

Comme j’avais promis que j’essaie, je créerai un article de blog avec la conclusion du poème Anomalie (la version anglaise; la version française sera finie après une semaine.). Je créerai un article de blog pour un nouvelle poème pendant le weekend prochain aussi, mais la première partie sera sera dans un deuxième article de blog. J’espère que vous aimerez mon poème, mais, si ce n’est pas le cas, je comprends. Je demande seulement que vos commentaires sont civiles et constructives. Merci! Dieu vous bénisse!

Comme toujours,

Michelle

Anomaly

They confirmed that I was the anomaly of our diverse group

When we discussed social constructs and I told the truth./

“I’m the white, Christian, female, heterosexual, cisgender one,

So I’m probably the anomaly here”- sure enough, I was./

Then we went right back to our friendly discussion and banter

Though I found myself disengaged as I pondered the matter/
Indeed, I stood out from the rest, for I live quite a bit differently,

But at least I’m glad we get along, and more so to be the anomaly./

So it’s no wonder sometimes I feel lost in this broken, selfish world,

Living in a fallen world is difficult for this serious, old soul of a Christian girl/

Whose entire existence hinges on day-by-day living

Serving her God and King while awaiting His second coming./

I also admit I get lost sometimes

Chasing things of the world that aren’t meant to be mine/

Like the rest of us, as I am human, prone to self-preservation:

Sinful and looking for something, some peace or happiness./

Thankfully, I’ve found both in Jesus, though He never had to give them;/

What a wonderful God He is, Who loves me knowing I am imperfect!

Thus, I want to make my life a life lived in His service/

So that the world would see in me and my life the King who made them!

Thus, I acknowledge I am an alien and a stranger in this world,

Recalling I was set apart for God when I was just a little girl/

And though it isn’t easy, I’m proud to be an anomaly

Since my King, praise Him, died and rose again to give life to me!/

Indeed, I am blessed to know my God and love Him eternally

As He first loved me, even before the universe came to be./

Thus I want to live my life praising Him with all He gave me

And I’ll do that by living as a proud Anomaly. (Glory to God, that it would be!)

Spoken Word Poetry: Anomaly: Part 3/ Un Poème Parlé: Anomalie: La Troisième Partie

Hi everyone,

Having been busy for a bit and reviewing the poem while debating whether to post it to Facebook- or, rather, the poem as it is so far, I found myself writing a bit more, so here’s the continuation of said poem. Thanks and God Bless!

As always,

Michelle

Bonjour, tout le monde,

Comme j’étais occupée pour cette semaine et j’avais lu le poème pendant j’avais décidé si je le distribuerai au Facebook- ou, au présent, le poème comme il existe au moment- j’ai écrit plus du poème. Alors, la continuation du poème est en bas.  Merci et Dieu vous bénisse!

Comme toujours,

Michelle

Anomaly

They confirmed that I was the anomaly of our diverse group

When we discussed social constructs and I told the truth./

“I’m the white, Christian, female, heterosexual, cisgender one,

So I’m probably the anomaly here”- sure enough, I was./

Then we went right back to our friendly discussion and banter

Though I found myself disengaged as I pondered the matter/

Indeed, I stood out from the rest, for I live quite a bit differently,

But at least I’m glad we get along, and more so to be the anomaly.

So it’s no wonder sometimes I feel lost in this broken, selfish world,

Living in a fallen world is difficult for this serious, old soul of a Christian girl

Whose entire existence hinges on day-by-day living

Serving her God and King while awaiting His second coming.

I also admit I get lost sometimes

Chasing things of the world that aren’t meant to be mine/

Like the rest of us, as I am just like all humans:

Sinful and looking for something, some peace or happiness./

Thankfully, I’ve found both in Jesus, though He never had to give them;/

What a wonderful God He is, Who loves me knowing I am imperfect!

Thus, I want to make my life a life lived in His service/

So that the world would see in me and my life the King who made them!

(To Be Continued/ ‘A suivre)

Spoken Word Poetry: Anomaly: Part 1/ Un Poème Parlé: La Première Partie

Note: The entry is also in French, after a brief hiatus from writing in French!

Note: L’article de blog est en français aussi, après une pause des écritures en français!
Hi everyone,

As I promised, I am going to be writing more in the coming days and should have a poem complete- or rather, the draft, as I am almost always editing my writing- by this evening! It’s entitled “Anomaly” and came from a rather amusing conversation twith a group of acquaintances and friends with whom I frequently have lunch at one of the popular hangout spots at my university. The point of the poem is a mix of self-expression, social commentary, and encouragement for those who question and reflect on themselves and their roles in the world every day- especially conservative/traditional, born-again, Christians like me. I’ll explain more later, but expect to see a posting soon! God Bless.

As always,

Michelle

Bonjour tout le monde,

Comme j’avais promis, j’écrirai plus des poèmes, des paroles pour les chansons, et cetera, more dans le futur et j’anticipe la complétion d’un poème- ou, plutôt, le brouillon, comme je révise souvent mes écritures- ce soir! C’est intitulée “Anomalie” de l’inspiration d’une conversation parmi des amis et moi pendant nous mangeons nos déjeuners ‘a une place très populaire pour les rendez-vous parmi les étudiants de mon université . Le poème est un mélange de l’expression individuelle, de la critique sociale, et de l’encouragement pour ceux qui questionnent et réfléchissent sur eux-mêmes et leurs rôles dans la vie quotidienne du monde chaque jour- spécialement les chrétiennes qui sont régénérés  et traditionalistes comme moi. J’expliquerai plus en détail plus tard, mais vous pouvez anticiper ‘a voir un article de blog dans un avenir très proche! Dieu vous bénisse!

Comme toujours,

Michelle

Reflections on Turning 25 and The Next Phases of My Life/ Un Article de Blog sur Mes 25 Ans de la Vie et Les Ères Prochaines de Ma Vie

Credit/Crédit: Shutterstock.com Life changes quickly and constantly, doesn’t it? La vie change rapidement et constamment, oui?

Hi everyone,

Well, here it is- my last semester at my university as an undergraduate French studies student. That said, much will change and I am looking forward to it! Two or three changes of courses of study, attaining a blessed job, reconnecting with older friends and making new ones, and much more along the way has been more than I ever expected. For all this change, having come out of it 25 years old and closer to God and my family than ever before is a blessing. I couldn’t ask for more right now. Whatever God wills, I look forward to that. I hope only that you will pray for and encourage me and let me know how I can do the same for you. Thanks and God Bless!

As always,

Michelle

PS: Look for some writing and a new video by the end of this week!

Bonjour, tout le monde,

Les jours sont arrivés- les jours finals comme une étudiante de premier cycle  ‘a l’université où j’étudie le français.  Cela dit, j’anticipe avec beaucoup d’enthousiasme que ma vie changera beaucoup! J’ai changé mes programmes des études deux ou trois fois, j’ai trouvé un job que j’aime beaucoup,  j’ai repris contact avec mes amis d’un longtemps et j’ai fait la reconnaissance des nouveaux amis, et plus que j’avais anticipé. Pour tout que s’est passé, que j’avais vécu pour 25 années, les meilleures unités avec Dieu et  ma famille qu’avant maintenant, est une bénédiction de Dieu. Je ne peux pas demander plus de Sa faveur au moment.  J’anticipera la volante de Dieu pour ma vie. J’espère que vous prierez pour et encouragez moi et je les ferrai pour vous aussi. Merci et Dieu vous bénisse!

Comme toujours,

Michelle

PS: Je publierai des nouvelles écritures (des poèmes, paroles pour les chansons, et cetera) et une nouvelle vidéo ‘a la fin de cette semaine!