Spoken Word Poetry: Facing The Unknown/Back to Square One

Hi everyone! I haven’t written in a while because I have been very busy with work, ironing out the beginnings of writing a book (see more here), and such as that, I’m back and have another poem I plan to add. This one’s mostly about going through some personal struggles and questioning what God has for me, but knowing I can trust Him, even though doing so can be- and often is- difficult to the human mind. At least, I know that has been my experience and it is easy to give into the temptation to think God doesn’t know what He is doing when our lives aren’t working out as we hope. That, for some reason, got me thinking this evening as I was considering my life as it has passed so far. After all, though I love God, love my family,  love my friends, love my church community, find my job rewarding and am glad for my career path, have hobbies I enjoy, etc., I still have my questions about what the future holds for me.

As such, I’ve had a lot of questions about myself as a person and what my future will hold. Thus, I was inspired to write again, especially as today is World Poetry Day! Thanks to Nicole Czarnecki at The Nicole Factor .  I appreciate the notice!

Without further ado, then, here is the poem I mentioned and I will also have more details on the manuscript for the book I am authoring if anyone is interested!

(P.S. Please pardon the formatting. Everything I have tried to fix it has failed for some reason! I will do my best to fix it and ask pardon!)

Facing the Unknown/Back to Square One

I have days I admit I can mundane and all the same like when

It’s six or seven o’ clock in the morning again

And I wake up wondering why I am here and what is my purpose?

I love what I do, which makes my work worth the doing, I say!

But, like anyone else, I wonder if where I am now is where I am called to stay

Or worse, was I meant to be somewhere else to start and I went my own way

Instead of seeking the God Who made me with all my heart and ordained all my days?

What if, instead, I am where I am meant to be and missing the bigger picture,

But get bogged down in the details of the everyday until that hurts?

Maybe there’s something in what I am doing that I am simply missing

And I just have to keep working, waiting, and praying concerning what I’ve been given.

I know all things will work for my good in the end, but I still have my questions!

For example, I believe my work is significant, but  wonder, “Is all this worth it?

Am I living my everyday as I am meant to live, giving my everything I have

Working for my bosses as for the Lord, the Great I Am, that is?”

I confess I am as human as anyone else and sometimes feel like mundanity

Has been the result of my existence, awaiting the fulfillment of dreams of majesty.

Then I reflect on my God, my family, my friends, and the freedom of my country

And remember I am blessed, no matter what this life holds for me.

Of course, the cycle continues on to some weekends, however I find myself awakened,

Whether by sunlight on my face, alarm clocks, or puppy kisses.

Usually, I find myself waking early almost every morning then

And start the day praying, though battling life’s uncertainties again.

Then comes the inevitable: will I accomplish everything I had planned?

Will I find time out from housecleaning, bills to pay, and such as that?

Hopefully, I find myself thinking, I’ll spend quiet, focused time with God,

Take some time to share with my loved ones and snuggle up often with my pups.

That is, I find myself asking “Will life ever be less mundane than it seems at present

Even though I know my days are filled with good things and I have been blessed?”

After all, I doubt I’m alone in feeling that my everyday has moments of stagnancy

And wondering whether I am living my life well for the One greater than me.

I have my doubts sometimes about where I have been led and

Whether the life I have lived is making an impact, to be honest.

Right now, I admit, I am perplexed at best about how to manage.

At worst, I’m sometimes surprised I haven’t said, “All right, then,”

And found myself questioning all that I’ve come to believe in!

Very well, I know that the Gospel truth of my God is what it is

And the One Who is Faithful will never break His promises.

Even when I face the unknown, then, and find that my progress

Has put me back on square one again, still He is with me, no matter what’s next.

Whatever this life holds, in conclusion, however it changes

Be it life holds new relationships, income, travel destinations,

Career changes, new studies, greater wisdom and revelations,

Whether the mundane stays the same or becomes majestic,

Perhaps I am the problem in my life and need a change in perspective.

Something about realizing that the unknown is not mine to know, though,

Is, I confess, refreshing, although I admit often to a fear of the unknown.

Perhaps I am stuck in this cycle because I need to know more how to listen

To the voice of my God and to keep believing that all He says, He will do yet!

I know that facing the unknown and being on square one sometimes is not the end;

Rather, every time I find myself here is an endless second chance to start afresh

And live better for the rest of my life, for eternal impact and significance.

To God be the glory in all things, to Him forever and ever, then!

In the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, Amen!

 

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When Inspiration Calls…..

Write. Just write. It doesn’t have to perfect, I realize. Actually, I find that the bulk of my inspiration comes from being in church and in community with loved ones, especially fellow believers, outside of church. I have to give my pastor a lot of credit, actually, as something he said in church today really resonated with me.

Namely, take a look at Exodus 12 and tell me who you think the angel of death was. Some say an archangel, some believe there was another angel assigned to do this task, some say Jesus (“the Angel of the Lord,” as He is so often called in the Old Testament.).The answer surprised me, as I was of one of the other schools of thought that, well, wasn’t what God meant to show us. Considering that the Angel of Death passed over houses marked by lambs’ and goats’ blood and that pointed to the sacrifice Christ made for us well after the Exodus, I think that is a neon sign pointing to Who the Angel was.

That also got me thinking and, thus, I am writing again!

So far, I have what is written here:

The Angel of Death could have taken my life that night

He passed over my house and saw the doorframes./

But He saw the blood and He spared me from the might

That could have meant the end of His love and my days./

But in His grace, I lived to see my shame taken away

And He chose to die when the punishment was mine!/

How can it be that He chose me to live freely for His sake?

Why should I have been spared from the fate to die?

 

Chorus:

But He is here and in His death saved me

He is working in my life even when I cannot see./

God will stay faithful even in my unbelief-

Yes, even when I doubt, or I don’t believe  . . ./

He walks with me, He walks with me.

Child, are you wandering in the deserts of your past

Questioning what you have not instead of seeing what you have?

There is grace, there is mercy, it is free, just come and ask

Without cost and with an open heart, will your chains break at last!
(Chorus)

You are free in Him, loved, wanted, chosen, forgiven

He will never leave or forsake you in His promise./

Oh, come to the fountains, all who are thirsty!

Drink from the well of life and prepare to live free!

(Chorus 2x)

Something like that. If you have any comments, questions, etc., please do share them.

By the way, I’m also linking y’all to the sermon here.

https://livestream.com/mosaicchristianchurch/mosaiclive/videos/155294217

Let me know what you think! All comments are welcome provided they are clean, etc.

God Bless,

Michelle

What Happens When…..?

Hi everyone!

Sorry I’ve been away for so long! To be honest, as much as I want to write, my life has been incredibly busy and I find that, at least over the past month, there have been enough work and life-related changes that I find my writing to be sporadic at best and nonexistent at worst. I know I have posted about this before and I have the feeling this may not be the last time I will do so. What’s more, I find I have had trouble organizing my ideas because I have so many about which to write that I don’t know where to start.

As you can imagine, since God made me a creative person who enjoys writing, art, languages, history, music, etc., this is frustrating for me. I imagine I am not alone, so that leads me to the ultimate questions I have here.

Fellow creative people of WordPress, what happens when you find you’re having trouble finding time or inspiration to write, make something (jewelry, food, paintings, poems, name it), or do something else creative for God’s glory, the good of others, and that of yourself as He allows ? Additionally, what helps you to refresh your creative mind and get organized during your slumps? Any advice is much appreciated. Thanks!

God Bless,
Michelle
Michelle

Happy New Year! Well, Almost….

Hi friends!

As we go into this New Year, how do you think your year went and why? What was the best part? What was the worst? (Yes, more than one of both is acceptable to write here, for those wondering.) Also, what are your resolutions for 2017? Mine are as follows, as I have the feeling some may ask:

1) Get closer to God by reading Scripture, journaling, and sharing in community with fellow believers every day.

2) Make more time for family and friends however that may be, including my furbabies.

3) Save more of my money. I have a set amount going into my savings account with every paycheck and resolve not to touch it save for emergencies or other unexpected expenses.

4) Exercise daily, even if that is just some light stretching or a one-hour walk with my mom, my sister, the pups, or some combination of the specified groupings.

5) Be more efficient at work and have no fear about seeking feedback especially.

6) If I can, do a random act of kindness for someone daily. If not, do so as much as possible this coming year.

7) Write more poetry and songs, also taking the time to repair my guitar and violin in between all of the writing!

Finally, above all, how may I pray for you and yours as we enter the New Year? God Bless!

God Bless,

Michelle

It’s Been A While

Hi everyone,

 

It’s been a while and I am sorry I have not been blogging at all recently. Work has been really busy, among other things, but getting all of said tasks within and without the context of work for now helps! I resolve, thus, to blog more regularly and hope everyone is having a Merry Christmas! So long as we don’t forget the Reason for the Season, all should be well. Truthfully, the month or so that I ended up taking off from blogging and such has changed much, but I am back now and a more mature person for it, I think.

That said, how were your Christmas Days and how will you celebrate the remaining eleven days of the season? Let me know! Thanks!

God Bless, like always, everyone,

Michelle

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Happy Bastille Day!/Joyeux Jour de la Bastille!

Courtesy of Google.fr. Courtoisie de Google.fr.

Hi everyone,

Today’s first of two blog entries is a simple wish of happiness to my French followers and viewers! Happy Bastile Day! How will you be celebrating? Additionally, to those who are not French or do not otherwise commemorate the French Day of Independence, what do you know about Bastille Day and what do you think we as the rest of the world can learn from the French? All told, I will do more writing tonight as well. God Bless and thanks, y’all!

God Bless, like always

Michelle

Bonjour tout le monde,

Le premier des deux articles du blog concerne des vœux ‘a mes amis français! Alors, Joyeux Jour de la Bastille! Comment est-ce que vous commémorerez la fête nationale? Pour ceux qui ne sont pas français ou ceux qui ne célèbrent pas la fête,  qu’est-ce que vous savez du jour et qu’est-ce que c’est que le reste du monde apprennent des Français? En conclusion, j’écrirai plus des paroles des chansons ou un poème court ce soir. Merci et Dieu vous bénisse!

Dieu vous bénisse, comme toujours,

Michelle

The Spirit of Baltimore, or Reflections on My Native Region (English Version)/ L’Esprit de la Baltimore, ou des Refléxions de Ma Ville Natale (Version Anglaise)

Note: This post is in English only presently, since I am not sure when I will have the presence of mind or time to sit down and write out this full post in French. Saturday evening, perhaps. Thank you!

Note: Cet article de blog est en anglais seulement, au moment, comme je ne suis pas sure quand j’aurai la tranquillité de l’esprit ou le temps ‘a écrire le meme texte en francais. Le soir du samedi, peut-être. Merci!

Hi everyone,

Having lived in the Baltimore-DC area all my life and having had a long familial history here, I find this crisis, frankly, devestating and confusing. Basically, to give you an idea of how long we’ve been here, it’s been since the time of Edgar Allan Poe, truly; his adoptive father is my 4x-great-grandfather since he had his delegitimized son Charles Allen with an unknown mistress. Thereby, Mr. Poe is my 3x-great-uncle via adoption/legal guardianship.) Yes, so we are established here. In fact, my entire maternal family grew up in or around the area and some of us still live within the region.

That said, I can vouch for it 100% that what you are seeing now is not, nor has ever been, what Charm City is; at least, that was never the case for me. Has Baltimore had a violent reputation? Yes. However, from what I understand from others who grew up in the area, Baltimore was a peaceful, diverse, and friendly community until after the assassination of the Reverend Dr. Martin Luther King, Junior, in 1968. What my loved one described like Baltimore was as I remembered growing up. The violence I’m seeing today, I can promise, is nothing like what I ever experienced as a child. In fact, I remember frequenting the city with my family and even went to a famed restaurant in Little Italy for Easter dinner with my extended family this year, in keeping with our tradition for many years.

Therefore, I promise what you see here is not what the majority wants. We want peace, reconciliation, healing- not violence. Many have lost loved ones, lost homes,their livelihoods, access to basic needs such as food, water, and clothing….the list goes on. We’re already sick of this crisis and want nothing more than healing and to see the Baltimore many call home, regardless of what living here was like for any one of us,

All things considered, please pray for Baltimore and, if you live in the area, do what you are able to help bring peace and reconciliation to the area. That’s all I believe most of us would ask. I do. Thanks.

God Bless,

Michelle