Spoken Word Poetry: Small Beginnings/Genesis

*All Scripture references found on BibleGateway.com and taken from the NLT (2015) translation unless otherwise noted.

Hi everyone!

Finally, the creative juices have come back after a busy couple of weeks and a bout with the norovirus (which you may know as the “stomach virus,” “stomach flu” or “winter vomiting bug”). Very well, I did manage to do some writing in that time and do see a light at the end of my current tunnel. If any of you are going through some difficult circumstances right now, read Psalm 33 and focus on verses 18 and 19 especially:

“18 But the Lord watches over those who fear him,
    those who rely on his unfailing love.
19 He rescues them from death
    and keeps them alive in times of famine.” (Psalms 33:18-19, NLT)

Indeed He does. I wouldn’t be writing this right now if He didn’t because I would probably be places I don’t want to consider. Praise the Lord, He takes care of His loved ones no matter what we think of how we’ve lived, what the future holds for us, et cetera, and it’s never to late to live for Him and chase lions for Him while we’re at it!

In that vein, the inspiration for this poem also came from a book that started all of this. Some  of you may know of National Community Church in Washington, D.C., of which Mark Batterson is the lead pastor. He is also a published author of many books, iincluding In A Pit with a Lion on A Snowy Day (2006) and its sequel, Chase the Lion (2016). My church is doing a study on the sequel presently and something he said about feeling stuck in life and how to respond to feeling stuck resonated with me.

That is, “Don’t despise the day of small beginnings!” Initially, when I read that sentence, I  laughed from an even mix of cynicism and skepticism, but was convicted simultaneously. While I realized I needed to praise God for where He has me now and that He is working wonders I don’t yet see, I felt stuck. I also admit to thinking, “Yeah, well, I’d sure like to be where I want to be like He promised me He’d take me!” Since then, I realize the waiting is hard, but worth doing.

What is more, earlier in the book, Pastor Batterson refers to life-changing moments as “genesis moments:” reading a book, talking with a friend, writing a school essay, deciding where to go to college or to take a job, writing a blog post, et cetera. Yup. Even the seemingly mundane moments of our lives can have far-reaching impacts on the rest of our lives- and many others, whether in the present or the future. That stuck with me and formed another crucial theme of the work. That is, the small beginnings of your life are often the genesis moments that make fulfilling your dream possible. If you honor God with the dream He gave you, indeed, the small beginnnings will have been the genesis moments of making that possible. (See Romans 8 on how God uses pain for a purpose.)

Finally, a recent conversation with one of my dearest friends and sisters in Christ, Nena, gave me cause to realize that I am where I’ve been meant to be all along. I just had to submit myself to God and be willing to let Him break me of my stubborness, fears, insecurity, frustration, and even anger concerning my personal struggles. Nena’s encouragement to pursue my dreams and let God win out over my fears rekindled the motivation I had to write as well as pursuing my other current dreams, so that helped. Thank you, Nena. Your encouragement and willingness to remind me of the value I have in Christ and the impact I can make on others for Him came when I needed it more than I realized. (By the way, Nena, too, has a neat blog, which y’all can- and I think, should!- check out here:

http://stitchfixunfold.com/index.php/blog/.

Without further ado, then, here is the promised poem that came out of all of this. Let me know what you think and I pray, above all, that God encouraged you when you read this piece as much as He encouraged me when I wrote it.

Small Beginnings/Genesis
Finally, the pieces of my puzzle are falling into place

And I’m seeing my cave of Adullam for the strengthening of my faith/

And a much-needed training ground that God had made for His glory!

Perhaps the pain I had to bear was for my good in ways I didn’t see/

And that God’s doing something with the hurt, even when I have unbelief.

 

In any case, I find despising the need for me to be here is foolish

And while my feelings are valid, instead, I should give them to God and trust Him./

Help me remember, my Creator and King- Jesus- You and You alone know all things.

So to give up and give in would bring You dishonor, and what would that accomplish?

 

Help me instead to make the most of this situation, this genesis moment

That will lead to Your glory and promises You made to me accomplished./

After all, You declared that Your Word would go out and not return void

So help me to recall that and make each day lived by hearing Your voice.

Thank You, God, for the small beginnings that made possible this genesis

And now I look forward to seeing what, now and forever, is to come next.

In Your Name, Amen.

 

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Spoken Word Poetry: “Delay (Worth the Wait)”

Hi everyone!

I admit I have not been as consistent as I thought and I believed that I was over the writer’s block for sure! I apologize, ask pardon, and promise to write more regularly in the future. I admit I haven’t been able to make as much time as I like and that was draining, but it produced something, thanks be to God!

Delay (Worth the Wait)

Lord, what is this place? Where am I today?/

I thought my life would be much different than it is by this age!

Lord, I have some questions.

To start: Where are we going?

What am I doing right and where do I need to hit my knees?/

What else might I be missing that You, in your love, have had have in store for me?/

After all, you say, “no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived/

What God has prepared for those who love Him,” and I know you chose me. . .

Still, though I know Your “delay” is instead “Worth the wait,”

I’m starting to wonder how much longer I’ll stay here battling my pain./

Suffice it to say, I feel stuck in a rut-

Something like a cave, like David’s Adullam.

 

I know this can’t be all there is to feel this way

And that there is some purpose to staying a while in this place./

I know I have to learn something and will use it in the future,

And I have to admit I know I have often struggled to put You- not me- first.

 

So help me to remember You’re not done with me yet,

Instead that You’ve delivered me before and You’ll do it again./

That there is nothing that can make You love me any more or less

And that nothing can separate me from You, for I have been forgiven.

 

May it be, Lord, that Your will be done in my life every day

And that with each “delay” or loss, I’ll count them gains/

For Your glory and remember that You are with me now and to stay

So that I never fail to live for You and all I hope for is worth the wait.

 

Writer’s Block is Gone for Now! Spoken Word Poetry: “In A Writing Season”

Hi everyone!

I’m back for good now and am sorry to have delayed the publishing I promised to do. I admit I struggle with the hassle of perfectionism in work, but have since learned to enjoy writing for the sake of writing. Oddly enough, the delay inspired another work I’ll publish tomorrow, but here’s the one I said I’d publish first. I hope you enjoy it and any feedback, provided it’s civil, is welcome, as I have readers of all ages and all backgrounds here. Thanks!

In A Writing Season (“I’m Just The Pen”)

In a writing season

When the words don’t come easily

About the much there is to say

When life affords much to write about/

Yet the struggle stays the same . . .

It’s finding the time to get out, to put down on paper-

Or something- what comes to mind and to try leads to

Second-guessing yourself or asking “Am I?”/

“Will what comes of my hands result in God being glorified?”

Am I pleasing Him with the way that I’m using my time?”

“What happens if I’m wrong and people find darkness looking for light?”

“Well, it’s a worth a shot, I realize.”

After all, what’s the point of wasted talent?

What’s behind having dreams if not to give God the worship

Through the work meant to result from dreams He’s given?

Very well, I see: I can’t be perfect, for only God is perfect indeed

But can lead others to the Lord through the words I’ve written/

So I will write through His inspiration

Since my life is His to do with as He wishes.

/Therefore, in all to be written, may “God be the Author and I be the pen.”

 

P.S.: If anyone is interested in the source of the quote, the 1930’s-1950’s era country music singer-songwriter Hank Williams, Senior, once said of the songs he wrote about his life and Christian faith, or something like that, “God’s the Author. I’m just the pen,” as I recall hearing on a Country Music Television (CMT) program when I was a kid and a huge fan of country music. To this day, that love remains and has inspired my writing to a degree.

 

 

Back to Writing/Writing in Progress

Hi everyone!

As promised, I am writing again and I am not quite finished with the work yet. but something of potential good has come out of this writing season. Namely, feeling like I had to give up writing for a while because I lacked inspiration and time to do it, despite my desire to do so, put me in a stagnant frame of mind. Then again, I realize, sometimes one just has to write, as I’ve mentioned in previous work.

The Trouble with Writing

 

As such, I’ll post the work tomorrow. 🙂

God Bless, Michelle

 

 

Thank-Yous/Mercis

Hi y’all!

Whoever’s taking the time to view the works I’ve written in the past, thank you! I’ve been in a writing season, or lack thereof, and find writing- thanks in part to finding time to do that- difficult lately. A lack of inspiration as a result of busyness doesn’t help, either, and, frankly, finding that I am having trouble staying creative and finding much about which to write in the every day is frustrating. That anyone is reading my work and giving anything I have to say a chance is encouraging, especially since I want my life and work to reflect nothing but Christ and Who He is. For those who have read my work and gained something from it, especially if God used me to bring you closer to Him, that’s wonderful! Alors, je vous remercie encore! (Thanks again!)

God Bless,

Michelle